For What Its Worth

I was never number one. Everyone I knew always had a person they liked better or would rather be with than me but that never bothered me. I was usually included and always felt a part of the gang. But now that all I said and done I know not what I didn’t. And you know what? It bothered me. All through school I was an outcast. Yes I had friends but I always knew they wouldn’t be around forever I always knew I was the friend who was included only because I was conveniently there never wanted. People shit on me my whole life and for what reason? Cuz Inside I always knew I was never good enough for any of you.which is why I was always afraid u secretly hated me or wasn’t really wanted around but was nice enough to not have to hear “leave us alone” …So now that its at the point all of my “friends” have moved on and finally pretty much told me the nobody I was all those years….so the ones who I have now…the few who actually want me around…I’d like to thank you for giving me a reason not to give up.Even when it felt like everyone else pushed me to do so.